When Life is Hard, it's Time to Change

Well, I am 27 weeks pregnant now! I can not believe how quickly time has flown! But, this has truley been a blessing in my life as much as an accident. It has been hard, but I now feel like it is not impossible. I know I can do it! My life has done a 180 in the past 7 months, and I must admit I am proud of myself! I start next Monday at Vantage Sourcing for my 1st full-time job! I can't wait! Finally a "big girl" job! Knowing that I will be working steady hours, getting a good pay, and have benefits is such a relief! I have been worried about finances, and a good opportunity has come up, so I grabbed it & did my best! I am also going tomorrow to look at a couple of day cares, which has also been a stressor in my life. I didnt know how I was going to take Ryder to daycare & get him to a babysitter (whoever was going to do THAT!) while working odd hours, and late hours! Soo, a girl at work told me about a daycare that is 24 hour that she worked at & it is a good place! We'll see what I think after going tomorrow. Also, I am on the waiting list at Fox Run apartments & can't wait to have my own place! It feels really nice to know that I am actually doing it! I don't know when I would have ever tried to grow up if it werent for my belly growing out! :)
Yesterday I saw Zack and his mom Kim for the 1st time in a long time! I havent seen Zack in months, and his mom since before the pregnancy... & to say the least, it didnt go as I imagined. But I will be o.k. I know I can raise my son as good as anyone else, without help from Zack. Its going to be hard, but I am fine with that. He is worth working for! But I am not going to go out of my way to try to get Zack involved when he is bothered by it so much. Its very disappointing, but life doesnt seem to go without those every now and again... I also asked him to choose the last name, and he said that he should probably just have mine, so Brooks Ryder Toulmin is MY son. It was really hard t offer something like that, because it's a big deal to me, but if he doesnt appreciate something so special then its his own fault. I tried.
Lets see... I guess that'll do it for tonight!